chronicle II - refusal / delay
I would leave the first chance I got
fragment - I would leave the first chance I got
reflective prompt
is your current situation permanent?
this fragment captures how I make decisions. I process everything at once - I think, feel, sense, and observe simultaneously.
I let the feeling unfold until it shows me something true. my goal isn't comfort; it's coherence - an honest alignment between what I feel, think, and do. I can sit with discomfort until it starts to make sense.
it holds the pain I felt and how I reasoned through what had to come next. if the hurt I was carrying was only going to deepen - if staying meant disappearing - then it made more sense to become the version of me that could still exist.
that's when the awareness arrived: this place was no longer permanent. from there, the decision was simple, almost inevitable - I would leave the first chance I got.