chronicle III - refusal / delay
the meaning

drawing - freedom in knowing - ink on paper, 2025
drawing - freedom in knowing
in the drawing, the winged figure kneels at the mountain's peak beneath a full moon.
day has turned to night, and she finds herself in the space between endings and beginnings -
still, but deeply aware.
she can feel the ground beneath her is unstable,
that remaining would mean staying small.
to leave would require strength, commitment, and a kind of love she must now offer herself.
she understands that help may not come,
even from those who see her clearly -
that understanding and support are not the same thing.
and so she turns inward, not in despair, but in recognition:
this place does not have to be permanent.
the wings are folded and waiting.
if she chooses, she can rise.
this moment represents hesitation holding.
she has spoken her truth with vulnerability, but it was not met - not held.
remaining in this place now brings only more pain,
and she can see it clearly:
to stay would be to turn away from herself.
the letter carries that moment -
standing in the middle ground between knowing and action,
afraid to leave, yet aware there is no other way.
she understands that even the best version of this place
would never make her happy.
view the icon - the hesitation
view the drawing - freedom in knowing
read the letter - to the person who knew but didn't help
watch the reveal - hesitation holds
echo - the truth is not held
it took great courage to speak her truth.
she believed that once her words were spoken,
they would be held.
but they were not.
instead, the silence around her deepened -
as though the one she trusted had turned
toward those who broke her.
in that pain, something became clear.
the way out was not to be held by another,
but to remember she deserved more than this,
and to choose a life where she could be free - and happy.
the echo follows the letter -
the experience as it was lived after her truth was spoken but unmet.
once she sought to be held in understanding.
now, she understands that freedom begins in choosing herself.
watch the echo - the truth is not held
reflective prompt
have you ever looked at the best possible outcome of your current situation
and considered if it would make you happy?
for a long time, I believed that if I could fix what was broken,
then happiness would return.
but when I finally paused to imagine the best possible version of that life,
I saw it clearly - even at its best,
it could never make me happy.
no amount of effort could turn it into what I needed it to be.
and in that moment, I understood:
if I ever wanted to be happy,
I would have to leave.
- The Chamber
echo - the truth is not held
fragment - I couldn't rely on the person I trusted
fragment - I wouldn't be happy
fragment - I would leave the first chance I got
process video of writing the letter - to the person who knew but didn't help

preparing the drawing - freedom in knowing

in the middle of the drawing - freedom in knowing

creating the icon - freedom in knowing
process video of creating the icon - freedom in knowing
process video - letter, drawing, icon
video - resonances - chronicle III - refusal / delay
the silence stirs
I was understood
I was tired from translating my soul
I was never hard to understand or see
reflective prompt
what would it mean to be seen so deeply that you are no longer alone?